Quickie

hi hi! i just had a cup of Baileys and milk. added too much Baileys again today. am quite hammered. i'll try to get as much in as possible.

here goes!

1)have been really busy with my pathology exam last week. i studied for it but i still suck at it. sigh. however, i refuse to give up that easily. i know i will do better if i try harder. even if i don't improve, it's not the end of the world. uh huh. that's what i fathomed while doing yoga (yes i've been going for yoga classes. will talk about them after this) last week. it just hit me that dentistry is not all that i can do. i've got many other doors opened to me even if this one closes. failure shall be the force pushing me ahead. i am not ashamed. only fallback is that i've gotta work harder in the next exam to make up for the marks which i've lost.

2)the other thing keeping me busy was Elin! yeah! she was here in Cork for 5 days! we sure did make full use of the time she was around. haha. how? by gambling of course ^^ well, not with real money tho. we used poker chips. i finally learnt how to play poker! woohoo! after getting bored of poker, we switched to blackjack, and later chor dai di (big 2). i was winning initially, but lost all my chips to her in chor dai di! shish. she's too good. i also filled her days by bringing her around Cork (which is not very big as you may know). we went around Cork city,did some shopping. the following day, we visited Cobh, Titanic's final stop to collect coal before hitting an iceberg and sank. when we arrived, we noticed a tourist map stating that there is a Titanic memorial somewhere around. after lots of searching and asking for directions, we were directed to this small piece of stone in front of a grocery store. what a let down. it was a memorial stone, a tribute to all those perished when she sank. we also went to the cinema. we bought a 5 euro ticket and spent an entire day there watching 4 and a half movies. haha. well worth the money ^^ all in all, i would say her trip was rather eventful and enjoyable, apart from the surly bus and cab drivers that we met.

3) i attended my 1st Hatha yoga class here last week. i think that's the best thing i have done for myself in a very long time. yoga is so relaxing and it helps relief my insomnia. insomniacs should practise yoga. it also opened my mind to many things. my pathology exam for example. another critical point that hit me was there is that i should not burden my mind with worries which cannot be solved immediately. i used to worry about things which will happen in months to come. now, i will push them aside and face them when the time comes. this way, i will be able to maintain a calm and relaxed state. free of stree. free of anxiety. hehe. maybe i should start meditating too!

4) i'm gonna talk about my lab now. these particular lab sessions that have been a thorny problem since a few weeks back. i was made to feel like i was incompetent and really stupid. i was spoken to condescendingly. i was always on the verge of tears after these labs. sometimes, i would even cry on my way back from the hospital. i doubt anyone would ever understand how it is. the few people i spoke to didn't feel that the situation was as bad as it sounded. until a few days ago, i gathered that i was not alone. several classmates of mine were going through the same thing. and i thought i'm not dentistry material. perhaps she was just being too demanding. anwyay, thanks to yoga, i will not cry for stupid lab sessions anymore!

ok the baileys is kicking in. i know i know. so what if i can't drink? ;P i'm off to bed now.

wein